~light my life~

2011-11-26T17:23:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i blogged here! blogger has some posting issues. well, yet another semester has passed and i'm well into year 3! it's amazing how time flies. it's time i counted my blessings and look into the future with hope and cheer for God has always been so faithful to me! =)

changed my blogskin after a loong loong time. I realised that my taste changed. I was surprised that i'm not that into those colourful bright stuffs anymore. kind of mellowed down. hehe. well, people grow up, people change..

o well, will update more another time. i'm down with flu again! in need to sleep..

2011-10-28T00:25:00.001+08:00

From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I

-Psalm 61:2 ♥

it's nice to have fellow sisters in Christ working on the same project as me.. at least, when it comes to facing uncooperative group mates, i'm not alone, and we can mutually encourage one another in the Lord! o yeah =)

it's been AGES since i blogged here. School work's piling up like mad. Have yet to prepare for mission trip stuff. Nic and i and hopefully one more female are conducting workshops for the youths. I probably can't till exam's over =( they said they'd like to hear more about BGR relationships. i dunno if it's coincidental or what. but anyways, i'm so LOST with this topic! omygoodness. i must start reading up. heh

I have this sudden urge to change my blogskin these few days. Maybe i'm just too stressed. or maybe, i've just grown up. nooooo. a next phase of life. haha. I can't seem to find one that works well on blogger. Blogger is not cooperating with me on the htmls.

okay.. i'm soo tired.. and i just dun wanna think of all those piling work and conflicts in my proj grps..

if only life were a bed of gerbera daisies

Boy's dont realise how much one little thing can upset a girl

2011-10-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

I got this off one of the FB pages " Boy's dont realise how much one little thing can upset a girl" and found it to be really true. heh.. I'm not emoing! It just struck me as so familiar. :)

When a girl is silent, that's pretty dangerous.
She's either overthinking, tired of waiting, about to blow,
lonely, needs a hug, falling apart or crying inside. and
most probably all of those above

helpless

2011-07-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

have u ever had such encounters, when u simply have no power to do anything, and u throw up your hands into the air and say, "o Lord, i can't. But You can. Help me." ?

cos i have.

Jewel What you are

2011-06-28T14:21:00.001+08:00

To those, like me, who have been struggling to accept yourself for who you are, who have been struggling to love yourself the way God loves you, here's a song for you:

I’m driving around town
Kinda bored with the windows rolled down
See a girl on the bus stop bench
Dressed to draw attention

Hoping everyone will stare
If she don’t stand out she thinks she’ll disappear
Wish I could hold her, tell her, show her
What she wants is already there

A star is a star
It doesn’t have to try to shine
Water will fall
A bird just knows how to fly

You don’t have to tell a flower how to bloom
Or light how to fill up a room
You already are what you are
And what you are is beautiful

Heard a story the other day
Took place at the local VA
A father talking to his dying son
This was his conversation

“It’s not supposed to be like this
You can’t go first I can’t handle it”
The boy said “Dad now don’t you cry,
Remember when I was a child what you used to tell me when I’d ask why?”

(You’d say) Gravity is gravity
It doesn’t try to pull you down
Stone is stone
It can’t help but hold its ground

The wind just blows, though you can’t see
It’s everywhere like I’ll always be
You already are what you are
And what you are is strong enough

Look in the mirror
Now that’s another story to tell
I give love to others
But I give myself hell

I’d have to tell myself
“In every scene there’s a perfect plan”
Everything I hoped to be
I already am

A flower is a flower
It doesn’t have to try to bloom
And light is light
Just knows how to fill a room

And dark is dark
So the stars have a place to shine
The tide goes out
So it can come back another time

Goodbye makes a love so sweet
And love is love so it can teach us
We already are what we are
And what we are is beautiful

And strong enough
And good enough
And bright enough

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDvO7-r3bOs&feature=share

<3

2011-06-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

please dont use the word 'time' on me. if only 'time' were the answer to everything

21 in 3 weeks?

2011-06-21T18:04:00.002+08:00

O MAN!

I'm SO EXCITED! i'm turning 21 sooon! woah man i can't describe the excitement. HEHE. although i know i'll truly miss being young youthful and radiant (haha), I felt that this age is so important to me. it means so many things to me:

1. Freedom
2. Responsibilities
3. A new phase of life
4. etc.

i think point 3 encompasses so many things. so many..

o well..

i'm so excited. =D

right time?

2011-06-12T23:09:00.003+08:00

Oh Lord, what is holding me back? or should i ask: should anything be held back anymore? Lord i trust You. and i Dont want to be preoccupied with that which is unimportant. Lord help me remember that You are all in my life. Help me know what's the next step i should take in my life..

that big fat load

2011-06-01T16:46:00.001+08:00

i've a big fat load that's weighing me down and drowning me. where can i throw it to?

还珠格格

2011-05-28T21:48:00.004+08:00

recently started to watch ( and am currently addicted ) to 还珠格格 again! haha. dont eye-roll me. it is a very nice show! i'm already on to my 2nd episode.

brought back so many nice memories of more than 10 years ago when i was nuts about this show. but watching it now is so different from than in the past. i was only about 10 years old when i watched this show. now,after 11 years, i finally understand from the heart all the intense emotions in this show. it makes me marvel at how time passes, and to think that i would watch this show with a different set of eyes is pretty amazing. 11 years ago, i was just a kid! what did i know. missing that innocence. what struck me was this song that i heard during the show. it hit me so hard. although only the melody was played and without the lyrics, i had no idea why that wave of emotions just came by. haha. interesting. i have no idea either.

here's the song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QycciK3J0F8

i truly admire the way the chinese language is used in such beauty to bring out beautiful emotions and meaning that honestly, english cant . it's a shame that i'm not as proficient in chinese as i am in english. this show demonstrates the beauty of chinese. an example of which is demonstrated in this poem. such simple words but the dynamics and meaning behind this poem is so much. i thank God for this love and appreciation for language. no wonder i love lit!

你是风儿
我是沙
风儿萧萧
沙儿飘飘
风儿吹吹
沙儿飞飞
风儿飞过天山去
沙儿追过天山去

i'm not being all romantic or love-struck here. just feel very touched and moved by the beauty behind the play of words and also the meaning that is behind all these.unlike the past when i knew nothing, now, i feel it and somehow understand it too.

You are my Portion O Lord- Psalm 119:57

2011-04-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

My Good Friday's message from God was this simple, yet this powerful-- First love for God. Everything that I lack, everything i hope to be, everything that I am not, is summed up in this poem from Fast and Pray:

LET GOD BE THE MEASURE

I...

Let the grace of the Lord be the measure of my sufficiency;

Let the peace of the Lord be the measure of my quietness;

Let the power of the Lord be the measure of my strength;

Let the goodness of the Lord be the measure of my contentment;

Let the love of the Lord be the measure of my service;

Let the faithfulness of the Lord be the measure of my trust;

Let the beauty of the Lord be the measure of my worship;

Let the fullness of the Lord be the measure of my joy;

Let the sovereignty of the Lord be the measure of my confidence;

Let the promises of the Lord be the measure of my expectations;

Let the coming of the Lord be the measure of my hope.

Amen

This is who I hope to be-- God as my portion. I'm once again reminded that I am nothing without Him.

beauty of His time

2011-04-17T23:13:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging a really loong time. realised i lost the passion to blog and simply have no time to do so. i cant believe how time flies, and here i am, waiting for my exams to start, and waiting to welcome year 3.. it's truly exciting.. at the same time, i wish i had a little longer before i go out into the workforce and become a full fledged adult.

the past few months have been eventful =) happy ones and sad ones, somehow i got to know myself a little better than before. am now on this ambiguous edge which confuses me a ted bit, but God's words to me, in the end, are still the same.. and i guess those words which i heard from Him a year ago will be the same few words that should guide my life in the years to come, come what may..

it's been 4 yrs plus.. thinking back, it's truly amazing that we've waited this LONG! i still rmb thinking back in J1: 2 yrs till i get into uni, 2 yrs is SO LONG! but alas, 4 yrs just flew past our eyes and we r still on the wait. haha. things have changed here n there in the way i look at things. I no longer struggle as much with envious thoughts as i see pairs of people on the roads, in school, anywhere. Instead, i feel a sense of peace and tremendous gratefulness that I listened to God's guidance to wait. otherwise, I'd have never seen how things unfold in such beauty in His time, and I wouldn't have that same sense of conviction that THIS is God's providence..

Lord, i just need that extra strength to keep in step with u. We've waited thus long.Help us not to move ahead of u n bring the 4 years plus of wait into nothingness. Amen! =)

heartache

2011-03-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

i hate it when i'm left dangling, feeling all the emotions in me.

i hate it that i'm so helpless.. =(

wish i could do smth to change things..

my heart just pains

missing daddy

2011-02-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

i'm gg to miss daddy for 16 days next week =( he even has to spend his bday there alone..wish he didnt need to leave for the states.. come back quickly daddy~~

2011-02-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

what's the one thing that hurts the most? --- sheer disappointment

2011-02-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

In my FB post , i wrote:

"Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she smiles at the future. Charm is decitful and beauty is vain,but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised" Proverbs 31:25,30

my confidence is in the Lord, not by how Man define me, but by how He defines me =)

The past few months i've been whining and being oh so concerned about growing fat, pimples, yadayada. and also, the comments from others kinda left their mark on me too. So ytd, God gave me these 2 beautiful verses, of what it is to be a beautiful woman in God's eyes, of how to be beautiful, regardless of how i am. =)

life's taking a turn this year for the better. feeling all the excitement and anticipation of stepping into a new phase of life, yet at the same time, yearning badly to keep in line with God and not run ahead of Him before the time is ripe.

my uncle and aunty frm canada are coming over to stay this wk. YAY! it's cool. something to look forward to. going for 3 family dinners this wk =)

anw, came back from e gym today, and felt great!

vtines was sweet and simple, spent time at home and in school stressing out over a test. but it ended well , with God's reminder of my worth in Him and Him alone.

new year new sem

2011-01-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

first wk of the sem, and went thru a week's worth of lectures, having a little fore-taste of what my modules are like

just really grateful to God. i almost took 3 core instead of 4 core because i was worried about the workload. also, i was hesitant to take the real estate mod because it seems sooo foreign to me. but somehow i couldnt find 2 other modules to fill in the gap . so i decided to take 4 core mods and 1 real estate mod.

amazingly, all my lecturers are pretty good =) i'm taking very interesting modules in my opinion, and the best part is, the workload is so manageable, i cannot believe i'm taking 4 core . i have a FEW open-book exams, and 1 non-examinable mod, and 2 mods with no projects to fret about.

phew. so thankful Lord =)

i am gg to PULL UP MY SOCKS this sem! PULL UP those grades! yeahhh

2011-01-03T17:52:00.002+08:00

2011.

WOAH. the year when i'll officially get my wings. =)

resolution?

only 1.

to rekindle that flame for my Lord.

who said a 2nd Gen christian has to be dull and boring?

my God is the God of impossibilities! yeah!

nice dinner w nic=)

2010-12-21T15:09:00.002+08:00

ytd i had a very good catch up w nic over dinner at tiong . it's been ages since we met up to talk. though it's not a very long 2 hours, but the dinner helped unload alot of things off my chest. felt extremely light-hearted and happy after that dinner. it's really nice to be able to have someone spur u on in your faith, and u in turn spur him on in the faith =) decided to try to find a bible character as my model to follow after . perhaps Jacob. want to have a fresh start in church and to bring my faith to a deeper lvl w the Lord.

tmr i'm meeting HUIFANG!!!

wooots! another nice dinner w someone i havent met for a loong looong time =D thumbs up!

i'm so excited w the gift tt i'm working on for a fren's bday. i hope she likes it..

my CAP decreased this sem. ARGH! but watever. the mods i took this sem were much harder than last sem. did my best le. so o well. just got to work harder. i really want to get a first class or 2nd class upper honours.... =(

anw, I LOVE CHRISTMAS!

struggles

2010-12-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

i miss friends whom i can truly share my heart out .i just miss them. sometimes i find it so tough to find someone to talk to, someone who would just listen and not judge , someone who sees that i too am a human and am not wonderfully perfect. a somebody who sees my struggle and my humanity.

i wish my ugliness away. wish i were that beautiful white lady, on the inside. i never seem to be enough for me.

look up, sheila. there's somebody up there who sees u as worthy.

2010-10-16T15:42:00.000+08:00

nobody understands except You Lord

long time no blog!

2010-09-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

it's been ages since i blogged. i see the deadness of the blog. well, i've been really busy with school. no more honeymoon like last sem. this sem's definitely much heavier than last, and my time is fully utitilised almost to the max.

how's life?

honestly, it's been lots of ups and downs. and when i'm down, i'm really down. i feel weak. i just wish i could be stronger. the ups are good too! =) this sem's much more exciting than my past 2 sems because of the ppl who came into nus =)

really not much to blog about. too many things that cant be said. i just pray, pray that i'll be stronger in God =D

yessirree

juggling

2010-08-24T12:39:00.003+08:00

the past 2 weeks werent exactly smooth for me. guess tt's wat happens when we start losing our focus off God and start worrying about everything else around us, forgetting who God is in our lives. i'm starting to get back up again, and this time round, i'll stay strong =) because i've found my roots in Him again. gambateh sheila!

2010-08-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

it's been a loong time since i blogged.

school's started 2 weeks, time passes so fast..

this sem i wanna pull my cap points up again. my modules arent as heavy as i tot they will be =) YAY thank God!

i'm growing up.. i hope i get my freedom

hate module selection

2010-08-02T23:11:00.004+08:00

i truly dislike bidding and module selection. i have NO IDEA wat to take!!! =( argh. i'm really dying. at a loss

on a brighter note,

it's nic's 21st bday!! WOOOTS! happy birthday nic! =D continue shining for God in your little ways =)

alright. i still hate bidding. some crazy ppl like to bid to sky high numbers

byee

my 20th

2010-07-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

This year was pretty quiet. not alot of people remembered, but because of a few of my WONDERFUL friends, i had a GREAT time =) just extremely thankful for my family, christine, nic, huifang, cherrie and those who remembered . grateful that this bunch of people put in so much effort for a silly big girl =)

20..

woaa

unbelievable.

haha. feels funny. but i don't feel like growing up! i'm missing my 19 now =( heh. adulthood... ARGHHHHHHH!!!! i'm OLD!!!

it's really funny, i've never felt this way before. old. i look at those kids running around and can't believe that in 10 years time when they grow up, start dating, start A levels, bla bla, i'd be 30! *SCREAAAMM* . sob. who knows? i might become a mum by then . OH NOOO! no no nononononononononononoooo....

as i grow older, reality starts becoming apparent. in just a few more years, maybe, i'm gonna move out of the house and married off to who knows. i hate the idea of leaving my family =( actually, i think that courtship period is the best time of your life. because you have both your family and your other significant with you. and u wouldnt have to worry about all sorts of nonsense.

i'm growing up.

now i know how christine felt.

it's truly a new phase of life. very new. =( haha

dont know why my bday post seem so bleak. but on the brighter side, God has something to people like me!

"I will be your God throughout your lifetime-- until your hair is white with age.I made you, and i will care for you. I will carry you along and save you." Isaiah46:4

it's simply amazing how God keeps into account every worry that we mankind face. and the best thing is, He knows beforehand!

All good things come from above.. am thankful for:
1. a beautiful family
2. friends
3. God's guidance and moulding these past 20 years
4. His continual watch-care and love

5. friends who bothered to celebrate bday for me--

cherrie! thanks for the nice dinner, the portrait, and the very sweet BDAY SONG! nobody ever did that before on the phone for me! =DD

Nic! thanks for planning the surprise and putting all the effort to salvage the situation. HAHA! extremely thankful for the amount of heart put into it as well. without the surprise dinner, i think this bday would be quite a dead one =) and thanks for the very sweet forever friends bear! love it! plus the perfume =D

Christine! love you loads loads. just thankful for YOU. thankful for your presence, you returning to spore. thankful for the lovely card and earrings all HANDMADE! =D thankful for the beautiful time having a tai tai life this afternoon ;P thankful for being part of that surprise and for buying the cake! HUGG~~

Siew Li, michael, kinshun and wen yan! just grateful to all of you for being there yesterday. without all of u, my birthday would be sadly silent. haha! thankful for the bday treat and the movie treat =)

6. and of course, the BIGGEST! to my

DADDY MUMMY AND MEI MEI!!

just thankful for the love showered upon me. mei, i'm thankful for the present! you collated ALL my bdays from 1-18yrs old and made it into a scrapbk! cool !!! and i cant believe i got it on my bday too, even though you're in hk. thank u for the amount of heart put into this present =)

daddy thank u for trying to make this bday a happy one for me =) for the WONDERFUL dinner and bday cake!

mummy i'm thankful for how u try to ensure that my bday is happy, even when u're not around to celebrate for me! =)

LOVEYOUALL loads<3

and granny,

i always am thankful for just YOU. thanful for how you shown love to me and my family though u're not staying with us anymore =) thankful for your patience and how u're sucha great grandma to me

count my blessings one by one. count them and know that i'm such a blessed child of God! Amen. thank You Father =)

bye bye clown fish

2010-07-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

my daddy's clown fish died today.. it lived a ripe old age . healthy and fat. so yup! =D

china trip

2010-07-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

just returned from Beijing few days ago.. it was a great eye-opener. wonderful place. i'm so thankful to be able to learn more abt my roots .. the ancient ppl are truly smart and clever and skillful. one can only wonder how they can ever complete such beautiful,simple, and yet durable structures! evolutionists say that human beings started from dumb ppl, slowly becoming smarter and smarter. all that i witnessed show me THAT is NOT TRUE. cheh!

anw, i've also observed some interesting sights abt china and their habits:

1. their driving is crazy. to overtake the car in front, they can simply drive on the next lane which is going in the OPPOSiTE direction, in the face of oncoming traffic.

2. traffic lights are just a show. we watch out for cars. not the other way round.

3. the drivers use their honk for many reasons: -to warn -to rush the car in front -to warn pedestrians.

4. ah peks like to roll up their shirts to air their stomachs.

5. the young ppl don't mind PDAs.

6. some men like to grow long fingernails on their last finger. even young guys

7. shopkeepers and even air hostesses (i think it's just their way of getting ard things)prefer to lie than to tell the truth whenever they don't want to help u. e.g. in a restaurant, we asked for a cup of ice. and 1 waitress said that the ice machine is spoilt so can't. but the funny thing is we could order ICE COFFEE. so we asked another waitress and true enough, the new waitress gave us a cup of ice.

8. shopkeepers who are not from beijing will glare at u and give u the attitude if u request for anything more or spend too long in their shop. e.g. one lady slammed the drawer in our faces when my mum simply wanted to pay with coins. come on lady! it's still money

9. the heat KILLS. 38 deg celsius.

and last but not least, although some habits of the people there aren't really comprehensible, but the majority of the population are pretty nice. i've witnessed scenes that remind me that hey they are as human as we are. e.g. mothers piggy-back their children... it's just that we are brought up differently. perhaps if we were placed in their condition we'd be worse off! my dad always tells me that because these people have to fight to survive, it made certain characteristics of theirs very apparent to those foreigners who do not go through the same things as they do. we should be more gracious and understand them by not looking at them through tainted glasses.

those were just a few items that i couldnt understand. but all in all, i do think that my perception of the chinese in china is getting better. =) yeah!

a beautiful day w cherrie =)

2010-06-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

had a very beautiful day today =)

daddy passed me the car so that i could use it to drive to singapore swimming club with cherrie =D it was so exciting to be able to drive alone with a friend! hehe.

we gymmed today, my stamina is slowly getting better. =D after gymming, we took a slow walk out towards the national stadium , along the kallang river. it was beautiful. i LOVED IT! i simply love walking at this time of the day-- 6 plus, when the sun is setting. the breeze was wonderful. and the fact that i had a chance to take a stroll along the waterside, wow. the joy was simply indescribable. all were my favourites--strolling, the water, the beauty of the sunset, and the gentle breeze. plus, i had great company! cherrie! it's such a pity that we didn't bring our handphones along to snap photos.

the highlight of the day came when we were walking back to the swimming club... we saw a rainbow. A RAINBOW! i was soooo elated. we were stunned and really happy =D argh i wish we had a camera. we waited longer and saw the rainbow get longer. so pretty! God's sign of His promise to us that He'll never flood the earth with a worldwide flood anymore, ever ..+)

That's not all. we decided to walk back after staying there to see if the rainbow would continue growing longer. we were about to cross the road when we spotted a second blessing-- a second rainbow. speechless

i waited a year for the rainbow. and God gave me 2 rainbows within just half an hour. it doesn't matter if it means anything now, but i'm simply filled with joy and awe and wonder =) i'm really happy. i thank God for that experience with cherrie =D

and i also thank God for Cherrie. i feel blessed to have a silly close friend from jc whom i can continue keeping in touch with. and i thank God that during this hols, i got the chance to meet up with her many times =D YEAHH! it's a very nice, warm and fuzzy feeling to be blessed with good friends who can share the joy of life's experiences with me . heh

okay folks!

i'll have very sweet dreams tonight =D

things to do

2010-06-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

things to do b4 the end of the hols:

-lose that 4kg
-pack my cupboards
-springclean my wardrobe
-finish the 2 presents!!!
-visit RCH =( i've promised them 2 yrs ago tt i'd go back. but never did tt .sigh.
-make good use of my time =( o man.. how am i possibly going to do that!

exercise

2010-06-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

i badly needed to exercise. so on tues, i FINALLY stepped into the gym the 1st time in 2 yrs! to think that i used to frequent the gym last time. HEH! lack of napfa = lazy butt.

it was wonderful! haha. very thankful tt christine was w me and encouraged me to do the treadmill w her. she said "it's not going to be that bad. let's just run 15min". HAHA! okay. that did the magic. so 15 min it was. it wasnt as bad as i tot! heh. exercise does wonders la. my pants felt looser after tt =D i wasnt dreaming or anything. but yeah it's goood =D

will go again next mon.

o gosh. my added 4kg has to go..........

+)YQ is back in church !

2010-06-06T22:38:00.003+08:00

YQ came back to church! i cannot describe how glad i am. praise God! only God can do such a change. really missed him man. we used to be so veryy close but lost it all within a yr. so when he gave me a msg out of the blue, i was pleasantly surprised =) i was very thankful when he decided to return and i'm simply happy for him. Life is never the same without God. but well, things have changed a little since one yr ago. now he's got other commitments so yeah. Despite that, the extent of gratefulness and joy of having a very close friend back in church again is indescripable =D

yep.

i bought a new pair of sports shoes FINALLY! i need to cut down on my flabby tighs. i nearly fainted when i looked into the mirror whilst trying my shoes. HAHA! but on the other hand, i'm grateful to have legs ;P

=DD

2010-06-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

my mum just made FB. faints. haha

returned frm hk ytd =) really tired today.

i went out w CHRISTINE today!! WOOOHOOOOT! haha =D i miss her so so so much. meeting her tmr and sun and next wk.. heh.. till she returns to viet =)

k ppl! i shall slp soon

guilt and shame

2010-06-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

sigh. today i felt horrid. ytd too . i feel like i did not put in my best for the party. and i just feel horrible now =(

rah~ no adverts please!

2010-05-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

please. dont advertise on my blog!

SHOPPING today!! yeah =D

2 is better than 1

2010-05-17T15:52:00.003+08:00

2 days ago, my dad n i observed a very interesting phenomenon in daddy's fish tank.

my dad has 2 clown fish, 1 big and 1 small. the big one seemed to be having breathing difficulties and kept staying at the surface, struggling to breathe from the surface. the interesting thing was, the small clown fish stayed by it almost all the time, using its tail trying to help the big clown fish stay afloat. as i continued observing the fishes, i noticed the other fishes in the tank coming to help the big clown fish as well! it's SO COOL la. they were staying as a group, surrounding the struggling fish, as if to encourage it and give it support.

i found this phenomenon so touching. the bible states that 2 is better than 1, when 1 falls down, the other can pick him up. even God's creation shows this. how beautiful =)

looking back

2010-05-12T14:53:00.006+08:00

this morning i spent some time looking through this sketchbook that i kept during sec 2. it isnt filled up yet, but i think i'm going to just keep it and start a new book. reason being,i realised that as i mature, so does the way i draw my pictures.

that sketchbook was so...KIDDY!! haha. i had a good laugh. I put some pictures of friends family and other things like my reflections into that book, kind of to make the book to have more substance. HAhA!

felt so embarassed looking at the way i wrote those little comments here and there, and the way i tried to draw the pictures. i didnt put alot of heart into some pictures so they didnt turn out so nice. but there're some that were nice.
The 1st 2 were nicer drawings from the past. the last is what i did ytd..

i think it's always so cool to look back at the things that you did when you were young. i saw some really precious photos of when i was in secondary school. o my. i miss those times GREATLY!!! really. although i looked toot like crazy, but i truly feel so happy just thinking back. i had so much fun! and i was really so innocent then.

haha. o well. cant believe that all of us are growing up so fast. soon enough we'll be attending each others' weddings :S haha. unbelievable.

hols

2010-05-05T11:24:00.002+08:00

end of my uni first year. time passes zoom zoom. unbelievable. really excited about moving up the next level.

but currently, i'm quite unsure of what to do with my time. i cant believe christine's gg back to viet on the 9th june!! AHHHHHHHH ~~~ =( o goodness. tt's so sad. ok. i'll wait for her to return. urghh =(

well, i was thinking of:
1. exercising
2. set up a bazaar store
3. hold a job? but WHERE AND WHAT to do?
4. cut short hair
5. learn knitting
6. learn shoe painting
7. catch up with friends

exams =(

2010-04-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

today's revision was draggy and boring.

sigh. really restless.

filled with sianness..

sigh

o wells. i dunno why i feel like this now. mayb cos i've been alone most of the day and tmr too. it's really sian to be alone for so long u noe. o wells. gambateh!!! ending in 2 weeks!

end of sem

2010-04-14T10:15:00.002+08:00

yep! this wk's the LAST wk of school

haha. and yes, i get the same feeling as last sem. just gg to miss the friendships forged this sem. because i know that next sem equals loss of some friends. yes i know that it's possible to try to keep friends, but it's truly an ideal to keep ALL friends. it's not possible. some, if not most, friends will fade inevitably. my circle of friends are getting larger. but my circle of close friends are shrinking. it shrunk by half ever since last yr. sad right. haha. army, overseas studies, diff uni, many factors. it's really easier said than done to keep friends. but ah wells, that's part and parcel of uni life i suppose =) just thankful for the memories, no matter how short.

i have this feeling that this cycle will repeat itself every sem. so i got to get used to it =)

anw. i'm not emoing k. i'm very happy that the sem's ending. SOOO HAPPY! i cant wait for the hols. i honestly want to take up a job. because me kaching is diminishing fast. and i cant shop. LOL! how shallow. o wells..

tmr meeting nilawan cheng-ah-leng to study =P i hope we dont end up chatting the entire time. my dad says that girls are really ji-za . HAHAHAHA!! the curse of the fall. HAHAHHAA!!!!!! mega funny.

happy studying my frens! all the best for your exams !

starting to enjoy uni

2010-04-09T22:13:00.003+08:00

i think God's been great =) i'm settling in better in uni now. life's not so boring and meaningless anymore, and i'm starting to enjoy the company of the frens that i have in NUS. haha.

finally some forms of my crazy self can be shown in school ;P.

the fotos are w my EL grp mates =D haha.

conviction from devotions

2010-04-08T17:15:00.002+08:00

yay!! school is ending in a wk's time! and i just checked my exam timetable. it's good! i am done with everything in slightly more than a wk =) cant wait! i'm already anticipating what to do during the hols:

1. find a job
2. exercise LIKE MAD
3. shop!
4. hong kong!
5. chill out with friends!
6. travel around singapore to visit exotic places!
7. do exciting things like set up a bazaar booth
8. plan and celebrate Christine and Nic's 21st bday!!
9. spend loads of time with christine before she leaves again
10. catchup w my dearies like OR HUI FANG, xinyi, amanda, and the other fairie girls. HAHA!

okay. ya. so u feel my excitement now. ;D

hmm. today i had a very convicting devotion. though of sharing my thoughts here. the passages that i read from the Bible today convicted me as a Christian and enabled me to see things at a different light.

today i did precepts. Genesis 3, Rev 20:1-11, and Rev 12:1-17. i truly encourage you all to read these 3 passages if you can. Otherwise, the impact may not be there.

THese 3 passages talk about Satan. In the past, i always learned that Satan is the devil, the father of lies, an evil spirit that does all sorts of evil, that tempts, etc. All these knowledge of Satan are simply floating in my mind throughout my life, so superficial and simply just a head-knowledge. I never realise the true vulnerability of everyone of us every single day every single second until today. As mentioned, and i repeat again , that i "know" all these things. it's only today that i truly understand for myself these truths that i have been learning in Sunday school and ywav all this time.

After reading thru these psges, there was a sense of fear and burden in my heart. there were 3 things that i learnt today:

1) Satan accuses the followers of Jesus Christ everyday, day and night

2) Satan persecutes us as followers all day long

3) Satan lies. And his deceit can be so convincing and subtle that we human beings fall into that trap so very easily . The worse thing is, sometimes, we dont even realise that we have fallen into his trap because we are so caught up with our own lives and selfish desires.

These 3 truths taught me that spiritual warfare is happening now, right this very moment, everyday and night. Satan is doing his job of accusing and lying to us all the time! this thought is such a scary thought. It just makes me realise that we humans are very vulnerable. It is the extent of vulnerability that scares me. We are very powerless in the face of Satan's attacks. This made me see now that we truly need God. NEED is the word. we will never be able to survive out there without God. because we do not have the power to fight against the forces of evil. That is also why it is so important to keep close to God and with the fellowship of believers because there is power in numbers. If we are alone and not in the fellowship of believers, it is so many times easier for Satan to bring you down.

Further, the knowledge of God's Word is very essential. Because Satan is deceiving us all the time, it is so important to KNOW and BELIEVE God's word. Knowing is just one thing. But to believe it's another. Knowing involves just the mind. Believing involves the heart. Remember that! Also, receiving God's word into your life brings you closer to God. and when you are close to God, it means that the evil one will not be able to touch you.

On top of that, i learnt now why God keeps stating in the Bible that prayer is so important. and why Jesus is always praying for us in heaven. i understand now why we NEED to pray. prayer moves the hands of God. prayer tears down the forces of evil. prayer means contact with God and therefore, POWER through God to handle anything that comes . prayer is just so essential. Remember the sermon preached that Jesus was unable to do much in his hometown because of the people's lack of faith? this too is one of the reasons why prayer is important. because prayer shows that you care. If you do not bother to pray, why should God bother to work?

Through this devo, i also came to understand the urgency to spread God's Word. I felt sad and disturbed thinking of the millions in hell. burning leh. day and night leh! can u imagine if you're one of the people there burning? wouldnt u have hoped that someone had tried harder in reaching out to you when you were still alive? I truly feel that christians are sometimes very selfish. It's enough to know that I am saved. We don't see the urgency or need to share and reach out. I am guilty of that. and i am angry with myself for how selfish i am. How can i ever think or behave like that!! we're talking about not just lives, but SOULS here! SOULS!

i pray truly, that God will convict the hearts of many christians who are sitting on the fence . merely a handful of christians doing the job is insufficient. there are SO MANY out there who need Jesus. The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. how true.

Good Friday 2010

2010-04-02T16:26:00.001+08:00

"Greater love has no one than this, that He (Jesus) lay down His life for His friends (all mankind)."-- John 15:13

happy Good Friday =)

one more month to the HOLS!`

2010-03-31T18:35:00.002+08:00

i can't believe how time flies. it's SO FAST! haha! 1 more month to the hols! =D i really hope i can find a job . It's gg to be a little challenging because i'll be gg to hk twice during this 3 months. So, i dont know if anybody will want to employ me. hehe. i let the teaching internship slip through my fingers =( partly because i'll be in hk for a while when the internship begins. but HUGELY because i'm SCARED of teaching. Bleahh.. haha. hmm. i'll try again next time!

this wk went pretty good =) i am a happy girl! and i truly thank God =D hmm..next wk i've got 4 assignments to submit and 1 presentation. woohooo.. all the best to you sheila loh! i'm coping well though =) everything is proceeding well. i should be able to finish by this wkend. hopefully.

=) God is good. all the time~ He put a song of praise in this heart of mine!

2 goals

2010-03-25T15:52:00.001+08:00

i have 2 goals now:

1. Keep fit. lose 2kg! chop off those bui bui parts

2. grow my hair quickly-- chop off the remaining brown parts!! ARGGHHH

hahhahaaaa

my hero

2010-03-25T15:44:00.003+08:00

It's really tough sometimes.

But God's here. He has always been with me. He is. and will be.

Have i told you you're my hero?
You're everything everything i wish i could be
I can fly higher than an eagle
You're the wind beneath my wings...
You're the wind beneath my wings...

Thank you, thank you

God's great.. o yeahh.. =) His eye is on the sparrow. You're the reason why i sing. Who am i that You are mindful of me? that You see me when i fall? is it true that You are thinking of me? it's a amazing....

=D

God's my sustenance.

2010-03-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

this year is the 4th year.. 3 years has past..

i guess sometimes it eats into people when the wait is so long. but at least for now, i'm doing well.

Lejing spoke to me again and yeah she asked. it's amazing how time passes. all i can say is that God's my strength. I wouldnt have been able to do it without God. i have to trust in Him, seeing how much He has provided, guided, and blessed these 3 years.

currently the struggle's still there. but i know i'll be fine cos there's nothing impossible for the God i serve =) amen.

silence

2010-03-13T18:31:00.002+08:00

Mother Teresa: We need to find God,and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature- trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls.

I love this quote. it is so soothing to be reminded of the beauty of silence amongst all the clamour and thoughts. love it =)

2010-03-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged.

i always can't seem to "translate" my thoughts into words, or my feelings into words. haha.

today was a very meaningful day to me. my friends carol and weeson came over to listen to the message in church. was really glad that they could come. On top of that, my cousin came too! i am really grateful for God's works in their lives. it's my heart's desire for everyone around me to experience how great this God that i serve is. and how loving and awesome He is. There's this longing for them to find the joy and peace in life in knowing God, something that cannot be described and something that no other thing can bring to a human on this world. that's my heart's desire for my friends.

i wish they could all experience that love .

apart from that, school's been okay. putting on weight. =( trying to find the motivation to exercise. HAHA. now without PC, everything is like in the grave. super unfit. just a few flight of stairs and i felt like dying . LOL! some people in church are eager to run together. and i've been constantly encouraged to go run with them. HAHHAA! i cant help but laugh. honestly, i dont want to let them see how chui my stamina is right now. even i cannot believe myself when i went to "try" the other time. it's AWFULL!!! faints. haha. ya.. sooo.......... i dont know when i'll ever join them. they'll just end up jogging in a walking speed if they run with me

HAHAHA!

okay ciao peeps!

i really miss all of u soooo much

missing my innocence

2010-02-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

i recently posted on FB how much i miss the times i had in sec school

really missing the innocence of that time. compared to now, those times were just Fairfield, a bunch of really fun friends, looking forward to school everyday, free from the entanglements of emotional upheavals, and just being blessedly ignorant of being a mature , thinking, seeing person.

i'm not saying that i'm mature or watsoever, but life after sec school was never the same. i start to really SEE things, the many facets of the struggles of life, and at the same time, the beauty of hope. honestly i do wish i had my innocence back. living in a world of my own, happy, and really carefree.

i miss those times alot. daddy is right. as we grow older, our circle of friends do get smaller. and yeah, life's struggles seem to increase.

just feeling a little melancholic at the moment. my own disappointments and weariness seem to wear me down and block out God's goodness in my life. i must not let this happen. i must jiayou and GET back UP!! hmm

3rd day of cny-cai yun leaving

2010-02-16T12:01:00.002+08:00

=( cai yun is leaving today. somehow feel sad. haha. o wells. i guess that as we grow older, friends will tend to leave.. circle of friends get smaller too.. cant send her off today..

CAI YUN!! i want to wish u God's presence to be with u wherever u go, and that God'll continue guiding and keeping u close by His side =)

LOVe U LOads.. please take care!!

CNY 2010 + v 'tines

2010-02-13T12:34:00.002+08:00

finally back again =D

tmr is CNY! this wk has been happening for me because my cousin is back, my family is back, and we had LOTS of dinner! haha. pplus i got to wear my new clothes =D so cool.

hmm. really glad that CNY clashes with valentines actually.. HEHE.. it's interesting to note how NUS focuses all its attention on valentines and not cny at all. the advertisements, programmes, and even the bazaar booths are ALL vtines based. just comes to show the importance of vtines to young ppl as compared to cny.

but i love cny! because i get to meet my cousins and relatives. =) always love to meet up and chat and do all the fun stuff tgt. but ytd during reunion dinner, i came to realise that we've all grown up..each of them have their own friends and their ownn lives to lead. haha. it's no longer just the bunch of kids who play around together all day long.

hmm. but what more can i ask? God's blessed us with a close relationship all this while.

okie!

happy CNY my friends~ =D

ups and downs

2010-02-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

havent been updating for long. it's been up and down for me the past few weeks. trying to make sense of things, and trying to keep my focus on dear God. trying to sort things out .

school's getting busier. i hope that this sem i'm more prepared for my tests and projects.

cny is coming~ yay! i cant wait =)

past vs present me

2010-01-20T22:33:00.004+08:00

i'm back again. i can't help but put another post up. was reading through my archives and i felt my face flush red in front of the laptop at the childishness in which i wrote my posts when i was younger. I found my Singlish hilarious and the apparent childishness ,even in the use of SHORTFORMs, so embarrassing.

Feb 2005:

"woah.. today mum woke me up to go to skool.. then realised i had a fever.. and a realli bad sore throat.. actually wanted to go to skool one.. but ma said if i'm so sick.. it's best tt i hav a realli good looong sleep.. yup.. fortunately i went back to sleep.. i mean.. i was soooo uncomfortable lorr.. and then realised tt a lot of my classmates oso sick.. hui fang oso didnt come to skool.. dory and nil signed out 1/2-way.. ya... and dunno liao.. well.. called ren jie.. then always engaged or wat.. so sianz.. hmmm... about tmr's newater trip.. i realli dunno whether i shld go ornot.. and later i'd be goin to e doctor's... aha.. i think tt's all.."

faints. HAHA. i know some of you are sniggering in front of your computers. But i think that despite the funny language, there's a sense of nostalgia.Comparing the way i write now and before, i'm so thankful to see that i've grown. HAHA!

ok.. cheers folks

sem 2 of uni

2010-01-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

well, this is semester 2 of my uni life.

everything is alright, but it seems a little too unexpecting and peaceful. haha! but i count it as a blessing =)i'm doing modules that do not require so much energy as last sem's. and i really thank God for that. last sem was scary . my timetable's pretty friendly, but a little weird. weird enough for me to be unable to find a way to go for vcf cg. but o wells. i guess there're quite a no. of things in church n in my spiritual life that i got to pay attention to for now.

i'm doing lit this sem. i have nt done lit.. unless u count sec 1 n 2 in. It was a little unexpectedly scary. i didnt expect to be so lost when facing this subj. but fortunately, i've got many wonderful friends to teach me n give me little tips here n there =D thanks ppl! today is fully-lit for me. morn lec was on poems and the rest of the day was reading The Great Gatsby. i truly marvel at how lit authors carve out their poems and novels and stories so intricately. I find that everything in lit passages are FILLED with meaning and substance. as i read through these, i can't help but hope that i could write like them too. haha! my interest has always been in writing. but laziness just kills the passion.;P i have a special attraction to melancholic poems and stories. Perhaps because of my personality as well, but yeah, i find them the most 'emotions-provoking'.

too bad Singapore doesnt have the grounds or the place for lit writers or poets.

NEvertheless! i think it will be a joy to read this mod this sem =)

i'm doing Genes and Soc this sem, very bio. i can say that i've given more than half of my bio back to Ms Lee. But i'm thankful for this mod. i think i may have a high chance of scoring well here.

i'm doing Eng Lang lvl 2. we're studying on the history of English. Honestly, i'm pretty lost in this mod. N it can get pretty dry as well. but o wells. i'm sure i'll do just fine =)

Psych is another mod that requires bio. I'm really thankful that i took bio in JC. it's so much more useful in Arts than the other sciences. the lecturer this wk was really BORING. my gosh. i hope next wk will be better

Singapore Society mod is really a sociology mod on Singapore. i think i enjoy this mod the most for now. it's really interesting. But i'm quite lost as well. i have no idea where to get the coursepack

i wonder when i'll be less blur.. or mayb it's just because i've been missing the 1st part of the lectures so far. HEHE! i'll strive not to be late next time

okie..

that's all for now =)

God bless!!

school

2010-01-15T13:58:00.002+08:00

=(( i think i'm still struggling to get back to the SCHOOL mode.. lalala..

went shopping ytd and bought 2 pairs of shoes!!! o man.. my bank account is burnt. i'm nt shopping anymore till feb..

2009 reflections

2010-01-02T16:57:00.002+08:00

2009. A year of great change and probably the pivotal point of my spiritual life. This year, i experienced God in a way which i would never have dreamt possible. God’s ‘real-ness’ in my life had been so great. “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33 has been the verse for me this year. This verse came alive.

FEB-MARCH

Bakerzin

I was desperate to look for a job that can come into contact with people, a job that doesn’t have to face the computer doing mundane work. But i had a lot of reservations with finding this part time job, so i asked God to provide me with a job that can ‘fulfill’ those ‘criteria’—1. The job cannot be on weekends because there’s church. 2. It has to be PART TIME. 3. I cannot work at night because i wanted time to do my own things as well.
I laugh, thinking back on the criteria that i set for my job. As everyone knows, firstly, weekends are the busiest of the week and any retail shop or food joint will definitely require their employees to work during weekends. Secondly night time is the most hectic in a day. Same reason as the first. Thirdly, part time jobs are not easy to find in retail and food joints. So basically, i’m almost left with 1% chance of finding this ‘ideal’ job.
Ridiculous as it may seem, maybe i was just ignorant, i prayed and i knew that God will provide. At that point in time when i listed those conditions to God, it didn’t come across to me as ridiculous or difficult to attain. I just prayed.

So me and Christine went to Jurong Point and went shop to shop to look for a part time job. Most shops turned us down. Others said they’d call us back but they never did. And finally finally, we came to Bakerzin. Coincidentally or by God’s grace and providence, they were conducting interviews for part time hiring! Somehow i felt this sense of peace. So, when the manager interviewed me, i told her really clearly that i will not be able to work on weekends. And she said NO PROBLEM! Wonderful! On top of that , the timing was very flexible. I could tell them the days that i can work and the days that i cant, and the timing as well, per week. The condition is to work only 3 days a week, minimum of 5 hours a day. This means, i’d have lotsa time for myself! So i got that job =) i was really happy, because i knew that it was from God. I felt the peace and yeahh..
But that did not stop there. Just when i thought everything was ok, when i started work, my supervisor came up to me and asked for my timetable for the following week so that he can plan. So i mentioned to him Monday to Friday 10 to 6pm i’d be ok. And he asked how about weekends. I told him that weekends i’m unable to because i have church activities on. Furthermore, i’ve already told the manager who interviewed me that weekends are out for me. That’s why i took this job. Otherwise, i’d not even take up the job. My supervisor did not rest at that and kept pressurising me to take up weekends. He told me that it’s not fair on the other part-timers because his condition for them when he interviewed them is that they have to work on at least one day on the weekend. But he said one point that allowed me to strengthen my stand. He said something like “i understand that the manager who interviewed you allowed you not to take up weekends. But i hope you’d understand.......” in my heart i was like “EXACTLY!” so it’s not fair for me either because i came into this job with the understanding that it’s no weekends for me. So ya. I did not give in to him and in my heart, i felt a little uncomfortable and was thinking of the worse that could happen. So i requested prayer from my friends and i prayed too, that God’ll help.

I was really thankful to God. The manager who interviewed me was switched to another branch when i came in. So, this meant that if i came to Bakerzin a few days later, it’d not be her who interview me, and i wouldn’t have the ‘privilege’ of not working weekends.
My supervisor continued saying nasty things to me and kept complaining to me that i should work on weekends but my stand remained the same. So finally, he relented and didn’t bug me anymore. I was worried that because of this, my superiors will dislike me and my colleagues will also look at me differently. But nevertheless, as Matthew 6:33 stated, if we honour God first, all these things will be added unto you. And that was just what happened =) To my surprise, i received praise from all 3 superiors and i was entrusted with a job that usually required more than 2 months of work as a waitress before i can take up that task –making drinks at the bar. I was barely 2 wks in Bakerzin when they pulled me in and taught me all the tricks to the making of the drinks. It is pretty amazing, because i have colleagues who have been working there much earlier that me and yet, they did not have the privilege of learning bar! Furthermore, because i did everything to my best, my 3 superiors trusted me. Once in a while they’d pop ‘quizzes’ on us. And if we can’t answer, we’d get a scolding. But I’m always so fortunate. I’d be in the shelter behind my barrista and my assistant manager will miss me out. When she finally sees me and tests me, i’d get the easiest question. HAHA! God protects. He really shields me.

Well, my worries that my colleagues will dislike me were also unfounded. And God blessed me with fun and protection during this period of time. It’s been a great experience and i thank God for that.

MARCH-JUNE

1) Fairfield

Last year, we were having a chat with one of my youth leaders who was working in a neighbourhood school as a helper for delinquent kids. I had this random thought of wanting to work with youths like them and somehow i felt for them. I pushed that thought aside and kind of forgot about it altogether.

Since December 2008, i had been trying to look for a relief teaching post. I approached more than 20 schools. None had a place. And none called me back. More than 20. It was then that i decided to work part time some other place instead of doing relief teaching. However, when March came, i received a phone call from my chemistry teacher from sec 3 and 4. To my surprise, she asked if i were available to give remedial classes for her N.A. kids. I was like WOW! If you all do not know, in secondary school, i was down for chemistry remedial lessons and my grades for chemistry was always the bottom few in the class. A FAIL was not a surprising thing for me anymore. So when my teacher called to ask, i was taken aback. It must be from God. I did not have to do the searching. The job just came to me. PLUS! God remembered my prayer 2 months ago. I wanted flexibility in my jobs. So He gave me this. I only had to go down to teach during remedial. I had lotsa time to myself, whilst tutoring them.

Much as this was a blessing, i had my fears. N.A. kids. They are a special bunch of children and i have no idea how to handle them. It was then that i remembered the little passion that i felt a year ago when i was talking to my youth leader, that little passion for delinquent kids. So, i knew that it was a gift from God, a chance to try it out. I took up the job.

Little did i know, not only did i managed to click well with these kids, i had feedback that they enjoyed my lesson! I was grateful for that. And during this period of time, i felt the sense of satisfaction and meaning whilst teaching these kids. In my heart, i felt this longing to help them make it in life by doing this small part of mine.
This experience changed me and has caused me to reconsider my future endeavours and i’m grateful for this God-given chance and God-planned opportunity to get in touch with this really special group of teens =)

AUGUST- NOVEMBER

Starting off in FASS was scary. I knew very little people from this huge faculty. But thankfully, because i went for VCF freshman orientation, i got to know more people. Before entering NUS, my prayer was to have a close strong Christian friend with me for my uni life. And God’s amazing providence brought Sarah into my life. Her passion and fervency for the Lord challenged my walk with Him.

The bidding period was crazy. As many would know, most people who bid for the 5 modules usually do not successfully get all 5 modules in the 1st round. They’d be out-bidded and have to bid in the subsequent rounds. But do you know how amazing our Lord is? I got all 5 of my modules within the very 1st round. All 5. Wow. On top of that, we had to ballot for our tutorials. Balloting is much worse than bidding. Balloting involves a random distribution of tutorials to students by the system. Hence, the probability of getting our 1st choice timetable is very low. Somehow most people will be unable to get a slot in a tutorial and have to re-organize their timetable and re-ballot again. And guess what. I got my 1st choice timetable. Every single tutorial slot that i balloted for was approved. I do not know how that happened. But i knew that God provided. Thank You Lord!

Through my uni semester, i came to realise that even my most insignificant worry and request to God is not seen as insignificant to Him. I am amazed at how He views every single detail of me as so important to Him.

Maybe i'll just pick a few to talk about. There was once i was supposed to do a skit during SEA tut. As u know, i super hate skits. esp if i have to do something really dumb. And yes, i was supposed to act as a witch doctor. i prayed tt if God allowed, He'll cancel this skit thing so that i wont have to do it. haha. So i went to class. i was prepared to do the skit if God said no. I was hoping that maybe my teacher will forget about this skit thing. However, I was a little disappointed when my tutor remembered that we had a skit to do. So i was already all geared up for e skit. But because during the prev lesson, my grp couldn’t come up with a name for our skit, our tutor did not record down our name. All of us were split into our distinct groups, so we were all sitting in DISTINCT groups. Everyone presented and our grp was prepared to be last. I do not know how, why, and what, but to my utter surprise and amazement, my tutor FORGOT about our grp! lol! How cool is that. HAHAHA!! But we kinda decided to be honest and told her that we haven’t presented. But guess what. My tutor was apologetic. And she said that there isn’t enough time for our grp! HAHAHAHAA!! SOOO cool.. heh.. so she said we’ll present the following tutorial. However, because there were too many people doing presentations the next tutorial, it left us with no time for the skit. God simply answered my prayer in such an awesome way! He is so good.

Another time i was at the bus, and was sitting in front of a coughing uncle. i was sooo scared tt i'll be implicated becos i fall sick very easily. i was afraid tt he didnt cover his mouth whenever he coughed. haha. so anw, i prayed tt God'll stop tt uncle from coughing, and tt he'll quickly get off the bus.. lol.. n true enuf ,frm e time i prayed, uncle didnt cough. What’s more, that uncle got off the bus 2 stops later! Another answered prayer! =D

God pulled me through my exams and projects purely by His grace. There was a few wks whereby i was at the brink of stress that i sent an SOS message out to my cell to really pray for me, otherwise i’ll really breakdown. Those few weeks were the weeks with a crazy load of projects that was impossible to complete. 4 projects to be handed in the following week, with 3 projects being NEW. You get the picture. I told myself to trust God and i remembered in a sermon hearing the pastor preach about just doing whatever you CAN and leave what you CANNOT control to God. God likes to work WITH US. So i did just that. I did not know how, but i managed to complete all projects before time. Amazing.
My exams were also a testimony. I had 2 weeks to complete an entire semester’s worth of readings. HAHA! Nice one. I went into the exam hall very unprepared for most papers. For some, i left half or more than half the readings unread. But i do not know how, i managed to keep writing and writing. God gave me the inspiration despite the lack of preparedness. God’s grace. It just shows that God blesses us not because of what we do or do not do, but truly because of who HE is!
Yeahh!

LESSONS LEARNT THIS YEAR

1. Obedience to God, submission to Him—if we honour God, believe that He’ll honour and bless us over and above what we can imagine!

2. Believe—many times as Christians, we say that we believe in the verses we read or the prayers we make. But actually, we don’t really believe. It’s a head-knowledge believe, not a heart believe. Are u like that? We got to change this part!!

3. Joy and peace in times of trouble—never in my 19 years as a Christian have i truly understood what this meant. I guess this is the most valuable lesson i’ve learnt, a lesson that i am very thankful for. Peace. My life is filled with drama. But because i serve a great God, i have no worry.

GOALS FOR 2010

1. To truly depend on God and understand what it means to “my God is all i need”.
2. If possible, find a ministry that i can truly invest in the lives of people. To find God’s purpose for me.
3. To continue serving faithfully in every aspect, no matter what happens.
4. To be filled with gratefulness to God, live a life of gratefulness for Him.

AMEN!! =D

FB

2009-12-28T17:32:00.002+08:00

u know. i think FB is sucha WAste of time!!! o no... i'm regretting getting FB.. haha

i really must have gone mad to get an acc.

haha

but nah.. have been thinking of getting an account cos i realised that i've been missing out alot in the lives of those abroad and hu mean alot to me.. ppl like justin christine anyi and even frens in other schools

yaa..

so my dears.. FB was really made for u all.. not for the photos, not for the fun.. but u all =)

EXCONS is finally having a PROPER gathering on the 30th!! and i'm so so so so soooo excited!! man i really miss my cell so bad..

haha

ciao ppl

Christmas

2009-12-25T22:41:00.003+08:00

Christmas 2009

Today's Christmas service was beautiful. God's presence was felt as we rejoiced in this really special day. Christmas is not about Santa or presents. i don't know where these came from. Christmas is about Christ. Christ, our Lord's Son, being willing to 'downgrade' Himself to be a human on this very special day. i find this really mind-boggling. How amazing God's love can be. y would He want to come just for all of us, to come as a HELPLESS babe, grow up in a simple carpenter's family, and in the end get betrayed and nailed on the cross by His very creation? such great love.beautiful.

today, God gave me this extra assurance and affirmation that i can face all things just because i have Him with me =) we can only feel true peace when we reconcile with Him, knowing that He is in control of all things. Praise God

apart from this celebration, ANYI IS BACK!!! I WAS SOOOOO HAPPPPYYYYY!!! =DDD hahaha.. had a wonderful lunch with lejon char vio jenisse and anyi today..i really miss her so so much.. muahhhh

lazy

2009-12-23T12:06:00.002+08:00

sorry ppl. my fans. i'm juz too lazy to blog. HAHA.i had a great wk. the wk started off as exciting. overly exciting. haha. went for my church fren's comms ball. i was super demure for once. u should have seen me man. totally not me. HAHA ;D and i met ANDRIS there! haha..

going out for lunch and shopping with dearest dumpling huifang lata =D i hope she'll not be late. HEH! but i still love u darh.

tmr meeting SARAHH!!! so happy =D i really hope we can still be this close next sem =( we'll be taking different modules =(

ok! i've to prepare my christmas gifts!

REDD

2009-12-18T18:01:00.003+08:00

RED at its best! haha! off to batam! will be back on sunday! =D

justin's send-off

2009-12-16T19:58:00.001+08:00

ytd sent justin off to canada. i grew up with this dear boy. it's sad to see him leave for good. o wells. but i know that he'll be happy over there =)

me and cherrie

2009-12-16T19:44:00.005+08:00

today went out with cherrie =) i'm really grateful for this outing with cherrie. i needed something like that. felt really relaxed and juz chill-outy. sucha good break for my really tired soul. enjoyed myself very much with this silly girl. =) dunno how to describe how it felt leh. finally, i can chill out without any tensed feeling, or any stress. heh. o wells. thanks dear

Gold Coast

2009-12-04T13:23:00.002+08:00

going to Australia Gold Coast tonight midnight =) will be back only on the 14th.. after that 19-20 dec i'll be in Batam with my parents' cell grp. haha.

till then, cya ppl! =) will miss singapore and u guys

Thumbelina

2009-11-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

some days back i was re-living my childhood and i re-watched the cartoon Thumbelina again. haha. so funny.. i rmb that i didnt like her when i was young. but now, i have no comments.. it's a very nice cartoon. it's pretty fun and exciting =)

anw i love this song from the cartoon.. very lovey-dovey, but very sweet

LET ME BE YOUR WINGS

Let me be your wings
Let me be your only love
Let me take you far beyond the stars
Let me be your wings
Let me lift you high above
Everything we're dreaming of will soon be ours
Anything that you desire
Anything at all
Everyday I'll take you higher
And I'll never let you fall

Let me be your wings
Leave behind the world you know
For another world of wondrous things
We'll see the universe
And dance on Saturn's rings
Fly with me and I will be your wings

Anything that you desire
Anything at all
(Anything at all)
Everyday I'll take you higher
And I'll never let you fall

You will be my wings
(Let me be your wings)
You will be my only love
Get ready for another world of wondrous things

We'll see the universe
And dance on Saturn's rings
Heaven isn't too far
Heaven is where you are
Stay with me and
Let me be your (You will be my) wings

video:
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9dud8gFRT8)

random

2009-11-10T20:51:00.002+08:00

wahaha! i love the fact that uni semesters are so MEGa SHORT! 4 months. so fast. yay! half a sem just flew past my eyes..n i think i'm doing pretty well so far =DD yay yay yay! so happy.. haha..i cant wait for year 2 la.. all my army seniors coming into FASS!!!!! so exciting.. i'll get to see many more familiar faces..michael,jack, yuanhao, nic..haha.. happy!

missing excons

2009-11-04T22:57:00.003+08:00

i cannot express how much i really miss you guys =(

costume party galore

2009-11-01T15:51:00.007+08:00

WAHAHa! ytd we senior youths went out for a time of fellowship at crystal jade Great World City.. we had a LOT of fun with our costumes.. it was really fun and exciting.. haha.. some fotos !

Weeson, Lejing , grace

HAHA!me, aunty pf, kenneth

CUTE RIGHT!

my grand-dad

captain hook, pri school kid, and grand-dad?

my wonderful youth leaders

Eu fei

everyone had too much
testosterone.. HAHAHA

terrorist, angel, kid, and ... phantom of the opera??

haha. love it

Dear Lord, keep her happy

2009-10-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord,

keep her happy and joyful in You always i pray.

In Jesus' name, Amen

watered garden whose springs will not fail

2009-10-26T12:34:00.003+08:00

reading nilawan's blog cheered me up a little. haha. that silly girl. i'll never do sucha thing man

The Lord will guide you continually,
and satisfy your soul in drought,
and strengthen your bones; you shall be like a watered garden,
and like a spring of water,
whose waters do not fail.

Isaiah 58:11

i got to keep looking heavenwards. otherwise i'll simply be filled with sadness. Sometimes i just feel very tired of things. so disappointed and put off. sigh

but this verse always gives me the assurance that God's presence is there to 'water' my dried-out tired soul. it's comforting to know that. blessed assurance. my waters will not fail

disappointment

2009-10-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

this 2 wks have been just rough for me.

it's just one prob after another

i wonder when it'll end..

i think it's really a test of faith in God.

finally one wk of tests AND exams past, here comes another wk of projects

then today i just felt the disappointment in people.

people. man, to think that i, a mere human can be this disappointed, how much more will God feel?

sigh

things're never going to be the same again. i really miss those times.

i dont want to grow up

a few memories i miss

2009-10-09T17:22:00.003+08:00

today as i walked pass the pasar malam near my house, i was filled with excitement and happiness. heh. i love pasar malam! it makes the night so much more lively, there're so many things to see and EAT! hehehe. it's just exciting.. i felt happy just seeing those stores set up slowly. not that i really shop at pasar malams actually (because i'm always so busy) but it feels wonderful to window shop whilst passing by those simple stores. yea =DD

there're a few things that i miss from childhood times:

(1) pasar malams-- shopping with my mum in pasar malams when i was young is really a long time thing. i vaguely remember the sights and sounds of pasar malam during those days in Telok Blangah Cresent where i used to stay.nostalgic =)

(2) minimart stores below HDB blocks-- i literally GReW UP with minimart stores around me when i was little. 8 yrs at telok blangah, on top of the 6 yrs sutyding in radin mas pri, at bukit purmei. miss those type of places.. sigh..i rmb going to those stores to look for my collectable huan zhu ge ge cards. HAHA! and also those little turn turn machines that'll churn out pretty plastic rings or toys. nostalgic =)

(3)the playground below my house at telok blangah-- that playground has changed countless times since i moved house. but i spent so much time as a kid there. playing the swing the slide and all those kiddy stuff..heh! nostalgic

(4)playing lanterns-- i rmb being crazy over my cloth electronic lantern that had music. hehe. i dunno where it went le, but somehow i just rmb how it looked like. haha.. nostalgic =)

(5) bus stop outside fairfield, and dover market-- just miss being a fairsian. =) beautiful memories. nostalgic! =D

i'm blessed with alot of memories.. so many so precious to me

yada

2009-10-07T21:10:00.002+08:00

well, thank God for e-learning wk, i got 1 more day off frm school to catch up with projects. finally done with my part for geog.. satisfied =) i think God really helped me formulate my tots and put tgt everything in a nice cohesive way. phew.

i'm really thnkful for this wk =) i cld hav a little breather in between the crazy pile of proj n tests. 5 consecutive wks of proj deadlines and tests can kill. hmm. but all in all, i'm confident that i can finish well because God always NEVER FAILS to deliver me thru all those crazy deadlines =) heh. i'm juz so sure that everything will be fine.. yea? =D

God delivered Goliath into David's hands. Goliath is big.. but our God is bigger! <3

me n cherrie!

2009-10-02T22:19:00.003+08:00

haha.. i wanted to blog about my outing with cherrie since last wk but i just cldnt find the time =(

well, we had a very very gd time of catching up with one another. i was so glad that i had the chance to see her again! o man i miss JJ =(( haha. we had talked abt all sorts of things. including rubbish stuff. HAHA! cherrie i'll always rmb the toilet thing. my gosh. super funny!

kk.. here r e fotos =)

gargh

2009-09-28T22:41:00.002+08:00

i will never try to cram 4 chapters of vietnamese into my brain all in one day , ever again. i feel like a zombie. seriously. that was simply suicidal. it's super draining and after a while i got so sick of it that i had to tell myself to stop and continue another day. haha. o wells

got very stressed just now by a few things. so i decided to stop whatever i was doing to come b4 God to refocus again. hmm. God really works miracles : " Come to Me all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest." haha! i rmbed this verse. but i couldnt recall where this is frm. o wells. i'm feeling better =) i will get thru this! yeah man! =)

(p.s. we'll be celebrating lantern festival in botanical gardens this sat! haha. bible study first then lanterns and fire crackers! =D)

God's my hero

2009-09-24T14:41:00.002+08:00

want to just declare that GOD'S MY HERO!! =DD

phew. i just scrapped through so many things which i dread facing, miraculously. it's not just once. it's multiple times in just a wk. i'm very grateful. God taught me to rely on Him and pray, instead of taking things into my own hands to fret my way through.i hope i really learn how to trust more, from these experiences =)

have been busy with projects the entire wk.. bleah.

ytd i went 2 Chinatown 4 proj research. n i was so CAPTIVATED by the atmosphere there. o man! i miss that place! all the traditional childhood stuffs popped up everywhere. i miss those childhood memories! haha. n i saw SO MANY pretty pretty lanterns! i was so tempted 2 buy one. heh.. i hope that EXCONS and fisherx would want to play with lanterns next sat. HEHEE =DDDD.. love it!

bumble bee

2009-09-22T23:03:00.001+08:00

will be transforming into a bumble bee this term break :S

2day spent half a day in NUS doing project. then went over to Lau Pa Sat for SEA fieldtrip research, after which had dinner w Michael, Siew Li and nic. it was a great chill out time. nic is getting more n more retarded. but he has always been this way. haha! havent seen siew li 4 a looong time.. i think she grew prettier! =D michael is down w a bad bad cough.. i hope he gets well soon..

k ppl. b4 i fall sick, i better go slp..

nights!

uni n christine

2009-09-12T23:17:00.005+08:00

spent almost the entire day on my soci assignment and i'm still nt done w it. MY GOSHHHH !! i have no idea y i cant formulate my argument. urggghh.. it's so frustrating. the assignment is only 2 pges. n i cant even finish it =( 4 to 11pm leh. just murder me..

man. uni is getting tougher. faints. e lecturers have this wonderful way of putting the deadlines of all the projects assignments and tests at almost the same dates. how great.

ytd, sent christine off.

tt gal was SO HIGH. lol. i wonder wat got into her. she was super excited to leave. seriously. haha. if she hadnt been so high, i would have been crying. lol. but when i hugged her b4 she went in, ya i must admit tt i wanted to cry. n i felt tt she too nearly gave in. haha. but her sentence spoilt e mood. LOL. she pointed her finger at me and said "aye no tears k."

o wells. there is my best fren for you. i'm really going to miss her =( sigh. there're just to many memories to pen down.

-radin mas
-mrs som
-mos burger
-shopping
-movies
-laughing like 2 crazy women
-dinners
-israel
-boys! HAHAHA
-EXCONS
-2nd service
-excons camps
-just being there for each other

=( =( =(

but i must thank God that i've been blessed with memories =D

dunno how long ago was this. i think sec 4 or sec 3 ? at settler's cafe

haaha. a-go-go night. sec 4

us now =)

school

2009-09-11T16:12:00.004+08:00

2day i met up with my english module grp to discuss about the tut. i had alot alot of fun w them. really enjoyed myself. haha. i barely knew the 2 girls michelle and li ling. yet i cld enjoy myself so much w them. i'm really thnkful.. i havent felt this way for quite some time =)

sending dear Christine off today =( my dear bestie. sigh.

o wells.. here r some fotos tt we took ytd =) during e farewell dinner 4 her

outside central

i made a scrapbk 4 her =)

TCC! =D

try their ramen. it's the BEST i've tried so far! i dunno e name of e restaurant but i noe where. lol

=) and =(

2009-09-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

really miss being myself. really miss being crazy and dumb. =( i miss JJ

anw,

there's smth i'm really really glad for. i'm really glad for Christine, my bestie. i'm so happy for her fire for God. i pray that that fire doesnt die down. it really makes me so happy to know that my dear fren here has been touched by God in such a powerful way =)

praise God!! =D

christine

2009-09-06T19:49:00.002+08:00

my best friend for 9 years, is leaving this friday.

lotsa feelings in me now.

i wish she could stay

but i know that's where she wants to be

and i pray that she'll stay happy

o wells. i need to grow.

reminder =)

2009-09-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

God reminded me " I am your greatest Supporter."

to live a life of integrity.

tt's my goal =)

driving license

2009-08-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE ON TUESDAY!!! =DDD =DDDD

it's really all God's grace. let me tell u why. i was suffering from fd poisoning on monday early morning, ard 12 to 2 am. it was really bad, felt really nauseous and had bad diarrhoea. i prayed hard that this wouldnt affect my driving. it took me really long to fall asleep, and i kept having the runs in the midst of my slp. when i went for my warmup at 10am, my stomach was still bad, with lotsa wind. n i diarrhoead again. so i prayed and this time round, really COMMIT to God my worries for the test and for school. i asked 4 calmness, and that my tummy wun give me trouble.

i took e test, and it went SO WELLL =DDD i was not nervous at all! considering how anxious i was the day before during my driving practise. it went really good.. =)plus, my stomach was behaving itself ! haha.

and God really answered my prayer to uphold my health for the test. because right after the test, i had a FEVER. lol. really. right after. it just shows how God really do work miracles

really grateful for how God shows Himself strong when i'm weak, there's always Someone i can count on when i'm really helpless.

school, focus, priorities

2009-08-19T14:42:00.003+08:00

this wk is really packed tight for me in a few ways.. and i'm not exactly very glad about it =(

finally managed 2 download all e readings online. i'm like one of those really slow ppl who havent printed and binded my readings, let alone read them. and that's really scary. cos i'm 2 wks behind time.. and there's LOADS to read. plus. i'm not going to find much time to read next wk either =( with tutorials coming in and all, i dunno how man.. i'm totally behind precept this wk. and it's quite bad . hav 2 get ready some other church stuff as well. i've been running all over singapore this wk. really feeling so flustered.

but thank God for my seniors and frens who were there to guide me and remind me about school stuff. heh. i'm like SO BLUR. thnk God for Sam, Sarah, Darren ,Jonathan, and many others =) God graciously helped me find textbooks at sucha cheap price frm ppl ard me =DD haha.. so nice

ytd i kinda really lost focus off God. it's really difficult to keep focus when things are PILING. took things into my hands and i was too busy to even think about or talk to God. i just hope that this wont happen again.

i guess i've been too relaxed the past 9 months, and it's so tough to be hardworking again. heh. but ya. i was thinking ytd. and i just found that my life has been uprooted from a steady smooth holiday to smth chopy and ya.. haha..nvm.. u get it.

i met yifang ytd at clementi busstop! and i was so delighted. that was the time when i really realised how much i missed JJ. urghh.. i didnt even realise it. how toot. heh. but ya. just feel that all my frens around me are sucked into NTU . i have so little here in NUS =( it takes alot of getting used to i guess. in JJ, i have frens waving to me and calling out to me in almost every class. woa man. i totally miss those smiling faces. now in nus, it's so different.

well ya.. that's abt it

dun wry ppl. things'll get over soon =D i noe it =) just need to keep relying on Him..

UNI's STARTINNNGGG

2009-08-10T16:31:00.002+08:00

o my.. i can't seem to believe that school's starting TOMORROW~~ o mannnn...............................

hhaha

tt's the result of enjoying too much. i'm absolutely NOT ready to use my brain cells again. and i have to admit that i'm still in the holiday mood. i got 2 adjust back quick. heh. ytd i was talking to my cousin and his gf. i guess i'm having a different take to uni life. i'm going to do my best for my studies. i'll definitely have a balance between work and play. but i guess the play would be more involvement with other people's lives. intending to cont teaching in fairfield. but it all depends on whether ms liang needs me to help. i'll be joining vcf of course, and that would also mean more involvement in service. and once i've settled down in school and vcf, i'll consider venturing into smth which i must continue praying about. yea o wells..i guess i'll be busy in a different way compared to them.

uni's gg 2 be so different. i'm kinda apprehensive about it all. new friends new places new subjects new learning style. and above all, a HEIGHTENED amount of independence,which, i must say, isnt my best attribute. HEHE. but i'll try.

but i must really thank God that i have friends in every lecture that i'm going for =D and that is REALLy comforting.

bidding and balloting is so stressful. i'm glad i'm done w bidding. but we still need 2 ballot 4 our tutorials -.-

anw! last week i went out w many frens just to catch up w them b4 school starts. tues i went out 4 dinner w vio and anyi =) when anyi leaves, it'll just be vio and me =( i wish we had more of such dinners.

wed, went out w my dearest christine. shopping at fareast . haha. ok. watching her shop. amazingly, i didnt buy anything apart frm a bday present and my much needed water-bottle. christine bought her clothes . really treasuring every minute that i have with her =)

thurs, went SWIMMING! yes~ finally. heh. got a little tanner la. which is gd. and fitter. a bit. HAHA. but yeps. n at night, went 4 dinner w nic n christine, one of the most enjoyable dinners i've ever had

fri, i met my VCF OG! played some games w them then headed to POMO for dinner. i didnt noe such place existed!! HAHA.. but i must say that e jap place was really nice.. i 4got e name of tt fd court though. so glad i cld meet up w them. it was really fun!

sat, we had 4F gathering ! wooots! it was so great to c so many ppl turn up. plus it was quite exciting 2 c how different ppl changed. HAHA! some became more despo ;P , some grew PRETTIER! and e guys are erm.. almost still e same la. HAHA. ok la. army did change them. anw. most imptly, STEFAN was there!! YAY!! so happy! stefan returned frm e USA for a wk. he's my faithful lab-partner for sec 3 and sec4. without him, my 2 yrs of lab life wld be hell. haha. i was so horrible w lab things. =D just really glad 2 meet him again. he's a really nice guy

and ytd, we had a family reunion! =D got 2 catch up w my cousins and relatives. haha. family reunions are always so cool. i love being ard my cousins =)

o wells. that spelt my really busy wk last wk.

praying hard tt this wk will turn out fine =D

ciao!

bday dinner 4 nic

2009-08-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

2day went out w christine n nic 2 celebrate his bday.. had loads of fun w my 2 besties.. i enjoyed myself so much.. n i really thank God for His blessings. i loved the chat w nic, loved the retarded moments of trying to trick him to believe that i bought him some cheapo earphones, loved e part whereby e 3 of us talked abt all the nonsense and laughed over everything, including each other's funny family moments. i loved the part when we talked about some deep stuff about church and about God, loved the part when we surprised him w this brownie bday "cake" . and i enjoyed the ben and jerry's ice cream! strawberry cheesecake is THE BEST. Hehe =D

realli enjoyed myself thoroughly =) i'm so gg 2 miss christine SO BADLY when she leaves :'( sigh. but o wells. i'm gg 2 treasure all e time i have w her

bday fotos!

2009-08-02T19:01:00.003+08:00

haha.. more bday fotos =D

Praise God~

2009-08-01T15:46:00.002+08:00

Give thanks to the Lord, our God and King!
His love endures forever...

just within a day, i received so many unexpected blessings. some blessings in disguise, others are pure blessings. blessings that only God can give. no Man can ever ever come up with anything close to what i got. Thnk You Father =)

post-bday

2009-07-21T19:19:00.003+08:00

last wk, huifang called 2 ask if i cld have lunch w her and christine on sunday 19th july.. haha.. i smelled smth fishy then.. but didnt think much abt it..

then on sat night, lejon called. he was like "sheila, do you know wat's the purpose of our lunch tomorrow?" LOL!!! he totally gave EVERYTHING away.. super funny!

anw.. i was really very grateful 4 hf, anyi and christine's sincerity and effort in putting in this birthday surprise =) so i didnt "break" the surprise and pretended i didnt noe anything until i reached thai express and laughed out loud when i saw my entire cell gang waiting 4 me! haha..

really touched by my dear-ies +) thanx gals 4 putting in so much 4 me!! i love you all so much =D muahh!

cousins~

2009-07-01T12:33:00.005+08:00

haha.. i love these fotos.. these were taken in hk when we were visiting our granny in the home.. visitors had to wear face masks.. n we, frm spore, NEVER wear masks b4.. super funny.. so we were very shua-gu.. but my cousins frm canada taught us how to wear it properly.. hehe.. we were having fun w e masks.. ;P

(p.s. meeting my cousins frm canada is lyk a dream. i've onli seen them once in my life b4 this trip.. heh )

cousin kayee n me =)

cousin eric, cousin kayee, me n sis =)

all the cousins tgt =)

michael jackson's death

2009-06-27T17:05:00.002+08:00

i find it pretty sad that MJ passed away..it's really shocking, altho i'm not a fan of his .. he's a legend in the music industry and ya.. just shocking.

was thinking abt wat the news reported abt his life and i felt even sadder 4 him. he's 50 million bucks in debt, 2 law suits against him, n his close fren was telling abt an incident of him asking MJ if he was a lonely man. n after a long pause ,MJ replied saying "yes, i'm a very lonely man"..sigh. y like that.. n he wanted to prove to the world tt he was still able to "make it" in the music industry. haix.. there's definitely no need to do so if u're confident in urself. we dun live for others to see.. n the worse part is all the horrible rumours of him bleaching himself when he said tt he's actually sick with a medical condition. please la. give him a break. i cant imagine how he'd feel if he's truly sick n the whole " bleaching "rumour is all fake. and so wat if he did plastic surgery on his nose n it failed? it's nt as if nobody else in hollwood has done plastic surgery. so wat's all e hoo-ha abt? i dunno man.. e media can sometimes ruin a person's life. i'd nt be surprised if he ever had depression..

sigh/

so wat if u hav all the fame n money in e entire world if u're so sad? it makes no sense..n so wat if u have almost everything in the world and the next moment u lose ur life and all that u ever had here in this life cannot be brought along w u? so y work so hard? n wat r u working for? wat's e purpose of life here?

hmm.. i'm really glad i have all the answers to those qns altho those r really mind-boggling ones.. sometimes we juz need to slow down our footsteps, and think...

happy papa's day

2009-06-21T17:05:00.004+08:00

11 reasons why i love You Lord:

1) You will never condemn me as a person

2) You never disappoint me

3) I can be just myself whenever i come b4 You, be it sad, happy, angry, jealous....

4) You know my greatest desires. And what is precious to me is precious to You too!

5) You bless me with things that i would never imagine i could have

6) There's always HOPE when things are messy and 'hopeless'

7) You're there to cheer me up whenever i'm down. You never fail to do so

8) You accept me as who i am, despite my flaws

9) You'll never give up on me, ever

10) Because of You, i have a purpose on this Earth =)

11) and You've given me the best dad on earth!! <3

There's nothing that you can do to make God love you more.
There's nothing that you can do to make God love you less.

i love You Lord, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

back frm hk

2009-06-20T15:43:00.001+08:00

back frm hk at last =) it's great 2 be home..

although i enjoyed myself alot over there, but spore is still e best =D very busy w all e unpacking n sorting out of fotos now.. yep.. o wells..

kk... update another time then! tata

in hk

2009-06-08T23:36:00.001+08:00

i'm in hongkong now =) so wun b blogging till i return..

shopping here is heavenly

(p.s. talk abt splurging . heh )

chubby chubby

2009-06-02T18:48:00.001+08:00

man.. i'm really C.H.U.B.B.Y.

ARGH. actually some stress is quite gd.. keeps me slim. LOL. i'm a glutton nowadays

nus fass

2009-05-28T14:57:00.000+08:00

i just accepted their offer. i think i'm gg to faint

dinner w anyi n vio

2009-05-27T17:46:00.005+08:00

ytd i went out w alda n vio n i finally got to eat my LOOONG awaited GELARE icecream waffle!! ** melts** i've waited since last yr ok. haha. cos i always wanted 2 go on a tues when it's half price. n i always cldnt find e time on tues. so YESS!!!! i got my craving satisfied =D

after which, me vio n anyi went 2 Waraku 4 dinner n i ordered a ramen.. my gosh.. e bowl was HUGE! it was even bigger than my face! haha. i was wondering how i'd dig into tt bowl 4 my fd. cos e ramen onli filled half of tt enormous bowl.haha. i was so bloated after tt bowl of ramen. anw.. there were 2 really SHUAi guys 2 tables across frm us. haha. yes.i noe. i hardly sae this type of "nilawan" comments.but ya. they were shuai. ABC. yepp =D

haha. ok.. gtg..tata

FASS

2009-05-27T12:07:00.004+08:00

i got into FASS ! =D haha. i think i've waited so long tt i didnt feel THAT elated. i was just okay lor. well. time 2 decide between the 2 universities. man i need help.

and seriously, i cant get used to how tan i've become!! quite weird..

anw.. last sun, susanna returned!! =D it was sucha gREAT catchup w my sec 4 frens.. we went 2 ms liang's house 4 a while n chatted. o man. i cant believe so many ppl r attached now. haha. but i'm happy 4 them =) here r e fotos! thanks amanda!

susanna, timo . we were so shocked to see timo in tt conspicuous army uniform at dover. haha.

haha. timo me n nil

me, renjie, susanna, joelynn, amanda, lanz

joshua toh lanz menglinn and timo added =D

us w ms liang

us with ms liang!

i'm a princess

2009-05-21T21:59:00.005+08:00

" i'm a princess. "

Take that photo of you as a little girl off your mother's refrigerator. Tape it to your bathroom mirror. Admire how happy she is, how sparkling. Be her, again. Buy a tiara. Admit that it looks good on you.Fantastic, in fact. Wear it whenever.

Take a personal assessment test. Do you have what it takes to be a fairy princess? Do you feel peas? Prick your fingers? Kiss talking frogs? ... Believe it. Be it....

Remember that you don't need a prince to be Cinderella, and that Prince Charming was nothing but an icky foot fetishist.

Find your fairy godmother. You know who she is. Thank her. Buy her a special gift.

Stick with the program! We know it's hard treating yourself like royalty. keep in mind that eventually you will rise to meet your destiny. It'll be worth it. If you dont' think so, ask that little girl taped to your bathroom mirror. Remember, you're changing for her.

___Sarah Strohmeyer, The Cinderella pact

i simply love the way this author pens sucha beautiful passage down. indeed, we need 2 find that inner cinderella in every one of us. only then will we be truly beautiful, from the inside out.

fotos =)

2009-05-19T16:20:00.004+08:00